Unrequited

Your homemade essence of joy

makes me smile when life can only destroy.

You took me out of the dark abyss.

I never thought I'd be that close to bliss.

You knew when no one understood.

I thought it was a dream, it was too good.

It might've been my miscalculations.

It could've been the complications.

I still see you everywhere

Hoping that you don't catch me stare.

I turn when I hear a familiar laugh.

Only to apologize on my behalf.

To see your smile,

made the pain worth all the while.

To see you cry,

hurts worse than goodbye.

Of my feelings i've said to much,

at least enough for just a crutch.

And of the promises of summer,

again my hope takes a plunder.

I have a good prize in the end.

The chance to still call you friend.

Was there ever a needle for the thread?

Or has it really just all been in my head?

No need for sympathy,

I was always unworthy.

We're back where we started,

Only not so parted.

The feelings are different; you feel caressed,

I feel the sear within my chest.

Now you float on in wonder,

While I sink asunder.